i wanna be a docter

i have been want to be a docter for a long time, but i must delayed it because i dont have enough ability in and my parents dont have enough money. i want to be a docter because that is my dream since i was a children, not only my dream but that is my parent's dream. i disappointed about it. sometimes i tought that God didnt love me but my parents said to me that it was a planned of God, that He is planning for my own good.